How Being Overweight Makes Me Feel
Most people will never understand what it’s really like for someone who carries extra weight around with them their whole lives. Because I am obese, I can let you know what it feels like to live in my world.
|We can begin with the most obvious, appearance.|The first thing people see is how I look, so that is where I’ll start.|People are usually judged by the way they look, and that is first on my list.} We have to stare at our bodies every day and hope that they can look good. The problem is the more we stare at ourselves, the harder it is to find any good. The features on your face, no matter how beautiful they may be, are dwarfed by the extra fat you carry in your face. Our best efforts at making ourselves beautiful go for naught as people only look at the layers of fat and not the accessories that we put on. It does not matter how hard we try and how nice or expensive our outfit is, the rolls of fat seem to appear everywhere and are impossible to ignore. Eventually you concede the fact that it is what it is, and approach the day trying to ignore the stares of everyone around you.
You leave for work. Just walking from your car to your desk is enough to start you breathing heavy and appear like you ran a marathon to others. You eat your lunch, but regardless of what you decide to have, you know that people are silently judging you and sometimes you think that maybe you should avoid all food and try to lose weight fasting. , but you know that it will never work for you.
You try going to a mall to relax. It becomes discouraging that there is not a place that had the types of things that will fit you, and you stay away. These store were not designed with you in mind and you find your self bumping into or knocking things over because it is so cramped. it seems like everything that is sold there is designed for thin model types and there is nothing that is made with you in mind. Having to see how something that you manage to discover in your size looks on is something else that gets your heart racing. As is usually the case, looking at the clothing in the mirror brings disappointment. You look fat, and the clothes only make it that much worse.
You live carefully and are forced to ponder and worry about things your thin counterparts give absolutely no thought to. When you take a ride in a friends car you worry that you will not be able to fit in the backseat.
Then there’s your health that you deal with because your knees creak under your added weight, and your feet swell and throb due to the extra pressure placed on your feet, and your back hurts all the time because of the extra girth you place on your poor vertebrae, and you cannot even do a simple six pack ab exercise program that you used to do when you were younger.
Your friends and family are supportive and you know they love you but they will not let you forget, not even for a moment, how much weight you’ve gained or how much better you would look if you lost some weight and even though you turn to message boards like biggest loser weight loss forum where there are people who are just like you, you seldom find the support you really need. This is the reality of being obese. This is what must be confronted by those of us with a weight problem. {Maybe not everyday, but just enough days to make you really seriously consider becoming a hermit.|Sometimes it can be forgotten and a good time can be had, but then reality comes back and wants to make you hide in a closet somewhere.|For the most part, we do not like to live our lives this way, although happiness does find our way intermittingly.
